“You think darkness is your ally. But you merely adopted the dark. I was born in it, moulded by it. I didn't see the light until I was already a man, by then it was nothing to me but blinding.”
Oh Tom Hardy…
you’re terrified of being ordinary.
so terrified that you won’t start anything unless you can be exceptional at it immediately.
won’t write unless it’s brilliant. won’t create unless it’s original. won’t try unless success is guaranteed. and this fear - this need to be special - is keeping you from being anything at all. being exceptional comes from being willing to be bad first. clumsy and uncertain and embarrassingly human first. but you can’t stomach that. can’t tolerate being a beginner. so you stay stuck in that space between nothing and something. never risking the ordinary that leads to extraordinary. never discovering what you might become if you’d just be willing to suck for a while.
you’re not special yet because you won’t be ordinary long enough to learn.