I whole heartedly trust you. If you ever take me back. I forgive you for leaving me. I won't hold that fear of mine, the fear of abandonment, within.I won't let it stop me from loving you as much as I can.
I hope you can forgive me in the same manner. I miss you. I love you ❤️
I will live, like you are mine.
I still love, like you are mine.
If only you hadn't walked out we would be. If only you believed me like you once did. I know i hurt you, and I'm sorry.
My life hasn't changed much. My heart aches constantly. I just push forward. Hoping to develope my mental fortitude even more. So that in the future we may last.
I truly wish you had believed me when I said I was lost. I was empty. I became nothing. Hollow. There was no hope in my reality, until I asked for help and God delivered. He showed me how to find myself again. Not through others, but by watching how they do. I remembered.
If I could go back in time to when I didn't have a job, and actually apply myself to being a better human. I would. But I didn't back then, and I only can do what I can now. You deserved me at my best like when we first met. I let fear win, and my mind suffered. So you suffered.
I miss you. I think of you daily. I didn't want you to walk out of my life, and at the time, I just wanted you to understand why I was doing what I was doing. But, in doing so, I caused you pain. I wish I knew now about my mental what I do now.