You can't fix how people perceive you. You can be your most honest self and still be misunderstood. Nobody sees you for who you actually are. People see you through their own experiences, insecurities, and expectations. Let them. And stop trying to change what they think of you!
You cannot rush life. Things happen when they are supposed to happen. Your role is to show up everyday and give it your best. Your best will not be the same everyday. There are days you'll be motivated and some you'll feel defeated. And such is life! Keep keeping on