It's time! please help me continue to heal + access clearly medically necessary healthcare
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So I was wondering how this Mars opp my natal Mars transit would go and it's not even exact yet smh But my hemo is back down to 6.4 and dropping, so I'm getting a blood transfusion and an iron infusion today.
What's most important, is that this is why I talk about automons
not only do i love a man that i can call for everything, i love when a man wants to be called for everything. never annoyed, always ready to solve a problem
its rly cool that other people have gotten to damage me so badly that i feel incapable of having the life/relationships i long to have & i have to somehow do the unbearable work of trying to fix what others have done to me so that i can -maybe- have some version of happiness haha
The concept of me enduring enough abuse during my childhood to be diagnosed with CPTSD. Then healing to a point where I’m genuinely joyful and people assume I haven’t experienced anything so they think they have to be my "lesson."
Who said that!? I’m ok solo fr like I’m cool .
one of my besties always gives me advice like “you will not be free of this problem or any of your problems until you address the issue of being controlled by your emotions. your feelings cannot force you to do things. anyone that lives that way is weak” and it’s so helpful
Once I designate you platonic , you cannot leave that box, you'll be platonic forever, same with once we start as lovers you can never just be platonic to me ever.
Me but I'm forcing myself to go to a concert in NYC instead 🩷 pls clap! Bc my lil excursions and my cats are the only reason I'm still here high key 😅🤣
Making Plans in order to Not Kill Yourself sometimes backfires because Now you wanna Kill Yourself and Also you have this Random Shit you have to go to
If we’re dating, I want to be your second priority.
Your first priority should always be you, your well-being, your ambitions, your growth, your life, and your future. Stay focused and keep building the version of yourself you’re proud of.
I don’t want to be a distraction. I want to be your motivation, your safe place, your biggest supporter, and your partner in growth. I’m here to cheer you on, not slow you down. Because I genuinely want the best for you.
And honestly? Everyone should approach relationships with this same mindset.
The minute I posted that I liked a man he switched up 🤣😭🥹 I was literally commenting about how I typically wouldn't even post the reflection of a man's shoe in a mirror selfie but how this one was different and it was not 😔 never again 🥲
I texted him, "How was your day today?" and he sent me a 10-minute voice note telling me everything.
And that basically sums up the kind of person I want by my side. Stop normalizing disinterest.
my genuine reality is that everything else i do is a side quest to loving & being loved. i cant bring myself to care about anything else, ive tried for years.