Oh, shit!

A place used to say what I let unsaid on daily basis.
From a small place in the suburb of the world.

[Oh, shit! @JustConfidences]

As mad as the Hatter
As lost as Alice
As jealous as the Queen
As loyal as the cards
As anxious as the Rabbit
As mysterious as the Cat

[Oh, shit! @JustConfidences]

How I'd like to feel desired

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But is that enough?

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I do love him. All I've to say

[Oh, shit! @JustConfidences]

I'm tired of trying.
Not only tired, done.
All that's left now is to wait.

[Oh, shit! @JustConfidences]

I'm tired of trying.
Not only tired, done.
All that's left now is to wait.

[Oh, shit! @JustConfidences]

From me, to myself

Lonely, Together

To be married, yet sleep alone
To wake to an empty space
To provide, to support
for nights spent in the glow of a screen
To care for the meals we share
yet never truly share them
#poetry #mentalhealth #opendiary #relationship #poem

[Golden Globes @goldenglobes]

Congratulations to Fernanda Torres on winning Best Female Actor – Motion Picture – Drama at the #GoldenGlobes!

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What am I to do?

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So, what I do is not needed
What I do is not noticed
Also, not appreciated

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These days, not even I can tolerate myself

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I'm feeling some distance this week... 😔

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That I was not enough, I know,
Now it looks like I'm not even desired/wanted or need no more...

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Then agajn

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Now I really don't what to do...
I'm in a open relationship w/ bery specific rules (that HE suggested we should have and document on a shared online sheet) today he broke at LEAST 2 of them. And ones he asked for..
#mentalhealth #KeepTalkingMH #opendiary #relationship #gaycouple

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What are our rules for?

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I am fool indeed...

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Too much goes through mind with too little being sad

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I do love him. All I've to say

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@kik1nha É sobre isso

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If I know that what I feel doesn't make sense, are my feelings invalid?

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And, obviously, I won't tell my bf cause he has a party now, and I don't want to 'make a scene'...

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Oh, but my heart is not that ok... anxiety is winning...