At some point in mental illness you stop going “I’m so sorry it’s because of the depression/autism/adhd” and start going “I’m not well in the head. I do what I want. Stay out of my way” and this, ironically, will massively improve your day-to-day mental health
many times a week i come to the awful realization that no one is coming to save me no one knows how truly miserable i am & this really is all there is to my life