okay not to be that person but i’ve noticed how SO many guys slide into my dms now compared to when i was wayyy bigger . before i would have to beg for attention and now they just keep popping up
i hate how romanticized bpd is like getting triggered feels WORSE than death. physically feeling your heart hurt when you feel/get abandoned. trying to “heal” for your next fp but it’s really just internalizing everything so that you don’t scare them away.
I hate feeling like i have to shrink how i love. like I need to remind myself “care less” “don’t double text” “pull back” “be chill” that’s not me. I shouldn’t have to dilute that just to be easier to keep. If anything the right people won’t make me hold back how I love.