Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل

Medical - SMA 🧬 & Scoliosis 🔩 & OP 🦴- Warrior 💪 |
Wife 💍 |
New Mama 🎀 |
Wandering Soul ♓

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

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[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

Sometimes all what you need is a moment of time where you go back to your old self and relive your younger version.

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

I woke up today with a feeling that I wish I called you and told you how I am proud of my daughter. Although I never heard your voice before but I deeply missed it today.
#Father

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

مستنية الفرج #PottyTraining

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Questioning everything about myself all over juat like the beginning.

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

Suffocation ....

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

It’s hard to say this out loud, but even as a grown woman, I feel that being raised without a father leaves a quiet void; something absent in both life and identity. At times, it feels like this kind of absence becomes part of how we’re shaped as human beings.

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

So much heaviness on my chest ...

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

I’ve changed so much that I no longer feel like I have the luxury of venting when I’m down. My tears have dried up, and it feels like my feelings are always invalid to others.

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

اكتر حاجة توجع انه تحس انك مالكش لازمة .. وانه طلباتك مش مسموعة

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

مين تاني نفسه يعصبتي !!

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

اللهم ارييح قلبي من الثقل الذي لا يحتمل

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

Feeling very heavy weight in my heart

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

Convincing oneself is often part of the healing illusion.
The heart usually catches up later.

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

Moving on isn’t a reset.
It’s learning how to carry something differently—sometimes lighter, sometimes with a smile, sometimes with acceptance.

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

As if memories live on a screen, waiting for a delete button…
when in reality, they live in pauses, reactions, comparisons, and all the moments that still echo long after the “click.”

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

It is funny—in that quiet, bittersweet way—when someone believes that erasing a trace is the same as erasing meaning.

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

My tears have gone dry ...

[Kesmat Kandeel | قسمت قنديل @KKandeel]

اللهم اني استودعتك ابنتي فاحفظها بعينم التي لا تنام 🙏🤲