It can be extremely hurtful when the people who claim to love us don’t show up for us in the ways we’d show up for them but you can’t get confused by this, let their actions speak. They aren’t showing up because they don’t want to lol.
We tend to make life more complicated than it needs to be. If they wanted to, they would. If it was meant to be, it would work. If it has potential, there will be growth. If it doesn’t, then there won’t.
If they don’t see your worth, if they lie to you, if they lie to themselves, if they keep taking you through the same patterns & cycles then that will always be the case. Time doesn’t matter.
I used to have a bad habit of doubling back, thinking if I left the door cracked then I could enter it one day and it might be different. But as I got older I realized, it never does.
There’s no rhyme or reason to it. It just all depends on how deeply you are attached, how much you love yourself, and how much you love them. But all in all, everyone gets tired.
The only advice I ever have for people in toxic relationships or dead-end situationships is just that even if you can’t see it now, one day you will wake up and be tired of it.
One day you will realize you want more, or deserve more. One day you will no longer want to go through the rollercoaster or the mental Olympics. One day your body, mind, and spirit will grow weary of it all.
Being in this space of not wanting to deal with or date anyone has been interesting. I have my days but overall, everyone disgusts me & the only thing I’m concerned about is being a better me.