@MischievousCur I think this is why im bad at making friends online lmfao i open up way too quick about insane topics. Irl im extremely charming (rate limited by having to actually continue to see them)
@mightydudbolt Every girl thinks shed be a player if she was a guy lmfao.
But also what expect? Women arent attracted to other women. Obviously = unmatch
Game is there to be learned but the world is full of retarded blackpillers
This may sound like B.S. to some people but I think it's true. There was a time in my life when I would almost literally say whatever I was thinking, just the most outrageous things, offensive things, things that didn't really make sense, whatever, and yet my social circle kept expanding, and people would keep inviting me to parties and bars, and girls would even come up to me on their own and talk to me. I even started getting invited to the rural property of a tech founder who created a company you know about and whose service most of you probably use on a daily basis.
Then I had a bad experience where someone I cared about did something that really hurt me and made me feel self-conscious for the first time since I was in school, so I started filtering myself all the time, and I just had a sudden mental block where I didn't feel confident in anything I said anymore, and I basically lost the ability to talk to people, and it was like my world suddenly started rapidly shrinking.
It was only when I started worrying all the time about whether what I was saying was appropriate that people stopped responding positively to me. It really does make me feel like your attitude can almost shape the universe around you somehow. Not in a supernatural way, but more as an emergent property of a bunch of small positive interactions continually compounding and eventually becoming like a reality-warping field that surrounds you. But it's hard to pick it back up again after you stop believing in it.
@LandsharkRides I only played LoL like twice and i felt a compulsion to play darius top lane, like in avatar when they put all the toys in front of him and he chooses the ones from his past life. And i think it means im a psychopath
@MischievousCur Wanted to make a furry goon game, those things clear $10k a month patreons all the time and you dont even have to do that much/update LOL. But i get this dirty disgusting feeling that im making the world worse, so i dont think its for me.
Next stop furry turn based strategy game
@MischievousCur Impetus: my jobs taking away WFH, i asked for a 20% raise to counteract this, they said absolutely not but maybe theyll throw me a bone, theyll tell me next week.
@MischievousCur Thank u woolf. Already doing all that and more actually...im just at a crossroads where im like fuck... 1) focus on job hopping 2) focus on excelling in my current role or 3) work on something ill own.