I don't know who needs to hear this, but start living. The days are flying by, and all you do is work, pay bills, and stress. Enjoy what you can- walks, sunsets, music, laughter and nature. Joy doesn't have to be expensive.
You deserve it.
seeing old clips from game of thrones is a double edged sword because on one hand you're like omg this is some of the best television ever, but then on the other you remember how it all ended and it makes me want to kill myself