I just wanted love and loyalty. To give me the energy I give them. Now I’ve crashed and burned with everything I had good going for me and have nothing. All I have is the greatness & love my heart produces for everyone but my self.
I hate posting about my struggles but I have no where to go and release my Hate, Anger, Pain, Stress & Self doubt. I can’t even watch my own kids properly. sometimes not even my own self. I wish I could run away and let go of every last thing that’s happened and start new.
I thought I had everything under control. Reality is, I’ve lost my self & I’m crashing my life into the ground. I have nothing now. I have no resources to fix it. My heart feels like I’m hoing to have a heart attack everyday & I can’t think straight.