Kira of shventtwt

`𓏲 ࣪₊♡`┈17 years old┈
⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ call me Kira! (or Eli if close/friends- shortened irl name :3)
╰┈➤ I'm nice 🥹
౨ৎ British!!
☆‧₊˚ no dni just don't be weird!

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

/ᐠ - ˕ -マ ⛧°. ⋆༺☾༻⋆. °⛧
╭∪─∪───── 𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋,♫,♪
┊˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Name : Kira!
┊꒰ঌᰔᩚ໒꒱ Age : 17!
┊⋆. 𐙚 ˚Pronouns : they/it/xe
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╰────── 𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋,♫,♪
⊹ ࣪

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

@LetMeBePrettyyy IMAGINE 😭💔

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

This kid has been chatting NON stop for over 2 hours
I cannot deal with this
I just want my mum to come
So I can sleep or something idk

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

Ive gotten like an hour sleep I think? I'm cold and panicky and stressed and I can't do anything to distract myself I hate this

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

I can hear EVERY sound and rustle and everything and it's really freaking me out
The way the only thing keeping that door protected is a chain and that's it
I can hear voices and I'm idk
Idk if that's my imagination or actually happening

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

I hate the jealousy that burns in me when I see people with worse cuts
Better scars
Anything
I hate how I automatically jump too wanting to cut deeper and everything so I can be like them or even worse
And with weight it happens too sometimes
I'm such an asshole for this I know

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

I can't find the keys so I can't even LOCK the door
This is fine
This is great
Probably
Hopefully
Shwhjwwjajajahahahaha

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

Tonights gonna be a LONG night
But as long as I don't try end my shit or anything out of impulse I count it as a win
Huzzahh

Oh my God this house is so big
And so quiet
It's weird
I don't like this

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

Paramedics left the house
And are still outside
Isn't it the perfect time to cut

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

I hate not knowing what's wrong with me

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

Dont leave me please I'm begging ill do anything you want me too
Anything

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

This is gonna be a long night I just know it

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

I'm really paranoid at night in my OWN home
Being alone in a house that ISNT mine being in charge of 2 kids is NOT gonna make this a fun night

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

I keep thinking everyone hates me
And convincing myself I'm a burden

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

This is reminding me of the time I had to wait 4 hours for an ambulance after an overdose
I think about that a lot
I didn't like that night
I can't imagine how my mum felt

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

Idk where mums put 2 of my box cutters 💔💔🥀🥀🥀
She wouldn't hide them from me
Just my brother
But
I wanna test my new One out
When I can

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

This isn't what I expected my night to be like

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

I'm always scared that I'm being too annoying or too much
Even if I'm not the first one too text I fear I'm being annoying just for existing and talking
Yet I reply IMMEDIATELY or as soon as I can cuz I don't want them to feel ignored and ill feel guilty for not replying😢

[Kira of shventtwt @Kirakickmachine]

The ONE good thing about tonight is I'm not thinking of killing myself!

Well I am I'm just not actively doing anythinggg

Thats a win
Yeaaa

[૮ • ﻌ - ა @unicrnsigma]

i hate that i get jealous when my friends have other friends