If you ever feel low about yourself, always remember, the Indian Government is so incompetent that instead of stopping paper leaks they simply banned a messaging app because they couldn't stop the leak.
India is a funny place.
There are people fighting against comedians, writers, activists.
While the country has bad air, broken infrastructure, irregulated food, insane heat, horrifying work life balance, shitty employment, shitty education, and rigged "everything" lol
Last time i cut myself, mom found about it and beat me for being ungrateful
When I told her i wanted to die, she told me to hurry and not be a burden
So when i cut, i will cut so deep that i won't be be alive to see the disappointment on her face
i wish i was dumb enough to be a choice feminist and genuinely believe that doing my hair, makeup, etc. was just "because i want to", but unfortunately every time i do those things i am painfully aware of the influence the patriarchal beauty standard has on me
i think my brain is rotted there’s chunks of my memory completely missing i constantly feel like im cosplaying a character trying to seem normal but decaying on the inside i feel soulless & empty & fake & not real & like i am not really here