i dont know how long i wished to be loved but i know its something ive always dreamt about since i was little. i just want it in real life. i dont feel like i deserve it though. im not pretty enough and im definitely not skinny enough.
i just want romance. i know i have it but i want to physically feel it. i want to be consumed by it. and i was so so close. i see people around me wrapped up in eachother and im just so envious. i feel so alone all the time.
like literally ONE hug thats all ive ever wanted. a long and meaningful hug and its just gone and i cant do anything about it but wait and sit around like a dumb fucking bitch. any other landmines relate πββοΈ?
i feel like i got the wind knocked out of me and i still cant get it back. i get that its just delayed but not knowing when has me so anxious im always on the verge of throwing up. i mean is it karma or what? why cant i have anything good happen to me. do any landmines relate?