@VicMontague @jonquilfreedman God i thought i was the only one with similar experience. The guilt i feel to this day for our relationship getting sour...
once I was driving and my friend said “I’m quitting” and handed me a bag of scary drugs so I panicked and threw it out the window but then worried a dog might eat it so I walked along the road, crying about high dogs til I found it. stressed him out so bad, he’s been sober since.