wild seeing girls post/listen to clients about dysphoria when i would kill to look like them. and then i think about the safety of not passing/looking feminine. but im also 4 years on hrt & ppl call me “big man” every single day. & it hurts every time.
i get a couple of days without people paying weird shit to me, then a deluge hits and i want to explode. but i dont. then im left holding the bag of emotions.