Also why do we beg for love from people who don't give a fuck about us.. i've always been like this and it's literally the weirdest fucking thing and actually disgusting
It hurts me that i am so self aware about a situation and think i worked so hard to heal from old behaviors just to realize i actually didn't and am putting myself through the same thing that hurts me and i should know better from
In order to become a better person, you must first realize how horrible you really are. Not in the dramatic sense, but in the quiet ways you sabotage yourself, repeat unhealthy patterns, hurt people who care about you, or tolerate what wounds you.