Depression and loneliness is a diabolical combination, You have to work your way through it as best as possible and engage in ways that help lessen the burden in a healthy way.
When you get put last on a consistent basis and then get told you not worth someone’s time but they still wanna have access to you and what you can offer 😮💨. And if you say something you become the bad guy is a wild thing. No way to win its either be alone or be alone…