forced maintenance, bulimic brit 🇬🇧,159 to 160cm, cw: 45.2kg bmi 17.7 to 17.9, gbmi:16s hw: 66kg ugw: 40 to 44 twt of shedding, pro recov, ifb shedtwt!
I went a bit crazy omg. I think I’m on 822kcal now (was on 201 previously, sandwich is 258kcal, beef is 60)
Maybe I should be nice to myself and not count the cupcake and watermelon as 300 to 350 but I don’t wanna be fattt
I just nearly passed out like I held onto my sink but I was on the floor instead of just the my vision going blurry for the first time in my ED.
For some reason I thought this would never happen?
My dad hadn’t even seen my body and called me extremely skinny at bmi 17.6??? What is bros problem.
Anyway I have to maintain for a bit now because they know I have food issues and if I lose more they’ll do something but I’m allowed to maintain
it’s so evil how food is so temporary; once the taste leaves ur tongue, it’s over, and the only way u can get the euphoria of that taste back is eating again. an endless cycle