Finally got my account and my followers back, however I won't be posting anything until next week. I get the feeling that if I post anything now my account is gonna get suspended again.
Nobody tells you how hard it is to rewire your brain so you can allow amazing things to happen to you after so much trauma or hurt. Blessings exist, good people exist, a softer life exists. Let it happen.
I promise you, nobody is ignoring you because you aren't cool enough. Everyone just has terrible time-management skills, and end up only speaking to like 2 people on Discord unless absolutely necessary.
Somewhere in your 20s or 30s you’ll get the opportunity to rebuild your life after a negative loop, heal from what broke you, live in your own space, reconnect with your discipline, and learn to love yourself again. It’s very important that you see that journey through.
once you turn 20 you have to fight everyday for the rest of your life to not lose your personality & spirit...bc what once came naturally to you will be exhausted into nothing if you don't actively Try. it's terrifyingly easy to become a lethargic, soulless adult