Matt

[Matt @LapiMati]

I see god whenever I open my eyes and maybe his light will guide me when I feel lost today or tomorrow may he guide me to repent and feel the lashings of hell for the things I have done I see god wherever I look I wake up and he is beside me and in me and I am him

[Matt @LapiMati]

May the flames of hell swallow me whole after I finish this bottle

[Matt @LapiMati]

I am a disappointment to myself more than I am to god

[Matt @LapiMati]

and im still worried sick about all of them and hoping that they are okay

[Matt @LapiMati]

fucking god man i really will never be able to forgive myself for not succeeding in killing myself

[Matt @LapiMati]

i feel at fault for everything that happened and i dont think i can live with myself because of it

[Matt @LapiMati]

i just wanted to make people happy

[Matt @LapiMati]

i didnt know what the fuck i was doing man

[Matt @LapiMati]

everyone acts like I'm 40, i started the project at 18, i was one of the youngest team members

[Matt @LapiMati]

i really wish i had more of a backbone

[Matt @LapiMati]

i feel this awful pain in my chest 24/7, and it never leaves

[Matt @LapiMati]

i give zero shits what happens to me anymore, the guilt eats me up alive at every waking moment because all i wanted to do was protect the people around õe

[Matt @LapiMati]

god i love alcohol

[Matt @LapiMati]

btw people still wish my attempt had succeeded, jokesters the lot of them

[Matt @LapiMati]

been falling deeper and deeper into alcoholism

[Matt @LapiMati]

I think people forget that different countries have different laws on post-suicide attempt medical holds. At least in Estonia you are not forced to check yourself into a psychiatry.

[Matt @LapiMati]

I will still be moving forward with legal action as there is more than one person who's information was featured in the video, and that includes my personal loved ones.
I will be logging out of all social media after this tweet, so I won't be replying to anything.

[Matt @LapiMati]

I was gonna make an introspective video on RoyaleDecals debunking the claims of me faking my death and grooming someone. However I decided I can't be fucked enough to do it. 🧵
Here is the rough video script:

https://t.co/ArmxMMXRRq

[Matt @LapiMati]

Everything in the script is outlined from dms and screenshots I still had left, anything unverifiable I did not include. Also I'm not returning to the royale high community lol, anyone claiming so is full of bs. Why would I want to return here?

[Matt @LapiMati]

#fuckpawmi

I will get this video taken down, no matter what legal route I have to take. I have more power as the former owner.

[Matt @LapiMati]

I am not returning to this account after this. However, I did come to make an announcement that I am pursuing legal action against Pawmi for her use of minors' personal information in her video.

I don't give a shit what she says about me, but the kids involved deserve privacy.