My Tawāf last night had only two adhkār:
1. Lā ilāha illā Allāh waḥdahū lā sharīka lahū, lahū al-mulk wa lahū al-ḥamd wa huwa 'alā kulli shay'in qadīr.
2. Rabbi irḥamhumā kamā rabbayānī ṣaghīrā.
And at the end:
Alḥamdulillāhi Rabb al-'Ālamīn.
It was an emotional Tawāf for me. As I circled the Ka'bah, I recalled our final moments together, my childhood, the times we spent holding hands, eating together, resting under their care, and the countless sacrifices they made for me.
By the time I completed my Tawāf, my heart was full of gratitude, longing and du'ā'. I sincerely believe that this Tawāf was one of the most precious gifts I have ever offered to my parents.
Now, I have one more reason to desire returning to Makkah and performing more Tawāf: my parents.
May Allāh forgive them, shower them with His infinite mercy, widen and illuminate their graves, brighten their faces on the Day of Resurrection, elevate their ranks among the righteous, and reward them in the most beautiful ways.
Āmīn.
People underestimate how deeply an environment shapes the human mind. Imagine waking up every morning to clean roads, proper drainage, minimal dust, organized surroundings, safe walkways. Eventually, your mindset changes. You begin to think clearer, dream bigger, and expect better from life itself.
If you are Muslim, say this du’a.
𝗕𝗼𝗼𝗸𝗺𝗮𝗿𝗸 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀, 𝘆𝗼𝘂’𝗹𝗹 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱 𝗶𝘁.
Ya Allah Ya Al-Muqtadir, nothing is impossible for You, so fix what feels unfixable in my life. Ya Al-Jabbar, mend the parts of me that broke silently. Ya Al-Barr, give me goodness even when I don’t deserve it. Ya Al-Wadud, place love for You in my heart stronger than my love for this dunya. Ya Al-Hakeem, let me trust Your decisions even when I don’t understand them. Ya Al-Baseer, You see every tear I hide, so replace them with ease. Ya Ar-Razzaq, provide for me in ways I never imagined. Ya Al-Hafeez, protect me from what I cannot see.
This cost them about $1 trillion.
The truth is, you cannot build systems like this exclusively on the logic of profit. You cannot expect to break even in 20 or 30 years. Projects of this scale are built because the government decides they must exist to serve the people.
And this is a problem with systems that are strictly, or overwhelmingly, capitalist. If you leave every problem in your society to the spontaneity of the market, some challenges are so large and so unprofitable that you will never have sufficient incentive to solve them.
SubhanAllah… today I learned something that shifted my entire perspective.
In class, the ustadh asked:
“Why do people die?”
Most of us answered:
“Because their time (ajal) has come.”
He said: No
happened to me when I was in Medina, it felt so unreal
visiting beautiful masjids and praying 2 sunnah raka’ah in each, walking the very parts of the prophet SAW, entering the holiest cemetery in the history of Islam, experienced the unmatched serenity and calmness of the prophet’s city.
everyone needs to experience this.
My problem is not whether anybody hates Muslims or not. I'm not religious and anyone has the right to hate whoever or whatever they want. My problem is that if you truly believe that "Muslims are killing Christians" in search of some "Islamic Caliphate", and you are serious about opposing them, then you should want to find out who is funding these "Muslims", who is supplying them military equipment, and who is constantly providing all kinds of political, diplomatic and material support for them.
If you believe in something, follow it all the way through. Go down the rabbit hole and don't stop until you've found what you're looking for. Once upon a time, when I had the same ideas about "Muslims", that was what I set out to do. Because that is the logical next step of opposing something. You should want to find out everything you can about this enemy so that you can disrupt it. So back in 2021, I set out to find out everything I could about these "Muslims" and the big masquerades behind them - and those masquerades turned out to be in Tel-Aviv and Washington DC. That was when I realised that "Muslims" were the least of my problems.
I thought my search would terminate in Doha or Riyadh or Amman - instead it turned out that even the Saudis and Qataris who incubated these awful Wahabbi/Salafi doctrines were just proxies of White, Christian/Jewish empire builders in Washington, London, Paris and Tel-Aviv. The "Muslims" were in fact, not involved in the decision making and they were basically powerless. The people who created the ISIS, Boko Haram, Al-Qaida etc were western empire-seekers who wore suits and spoke English, and the purpose of those terror outfits was not to create some "Islamic caliphate" but to seize land and resources for said white men!
And that's when my mental shift happened. The simple realisation that "Muslims" were at best useful idiots in this scheme, and that the REAL enemy were the people I used to hang out with at Bogobiri and the US Consular General's residence. I had that epiphany because I followed that rabbit hole down to the end and found the actual horrible truth. But most of you have no such balls. You are satisfied to just hear and repeat a narrative without ever trying to confirm it for yourself and take action based on that narrative.
This was the same problem I had with the Obidient people. I was ready to go to fucking WAR for what I wanted in 2023, and I lit myself on fire in ways that I am still recovering from. I escaped an international kidnapping attempt, I survived an attempt on my life, I spent months hopping around Nairobi short lets like a homeless person, and I would have done it all again if that was what it took to get that mandate. But most of you that claimed to support the same candidate had no such motivation. Your own was to sit on the internet and type "A new Nigeria is PO-ssible" and "All eyes on the judiciary" to zero fucking effect. And since that didn't work out, half of you have moved to APC, and the other half are still stuck in a 2022 - 2023 time loop, repeating the same tired nonsense that had no effect.
As I said earlier today, you people have no real convictions or beliefs about anything. All you do is make noise for a short while, then you go back to the shallow, stupid things that are actually the centre of your lives like sports betting, visa hunting and talking about relationships. Nothing you people say comes from a place of genuine thought or conviction - you're just a bunch of internet performance artists. Even the "Muslims" you claim are genociding you - if one of them flashes small 100k at you, your entire perspective will shift instantly. You don't believe anything you are saying, which is why I pity that Mossad asset that thinks he's going to instigate a civil war in Nigeria.
He has no idea how useless the people he's trying to instigate really are. Except he will bring mercenaries to fight the war on both sides, nobody is dying for whatever they claim to believe in Nigeria. The most they will do is talk everlasting amounts of shit at each other on the internet, and then switch up completely once they see money, food, or breast. They only came to this world to eat, shit, fuck, sleep, and die in that order. Anyone taking them seriously is just wasting his agency's budget. Even their civil war had to be fought and supported on both sides by foreign powers because they couldn't do it themselves.
I'm only afraid of an invasion.
I'm not afraid of Nigerians at all. Who dey fear mannequin?