i really genuinely think there is the toxic proana early stages of an eating disorder where you are not yet affected by symptoms of it, a long middle stage of openly indulging in disordered behavior, and a late stage of "i fucked around and found out"
I hate every one of the therapists that told me this was just a teenager phase,
I'm 20 now, and now you all tell me I already developed my shit?, you all just left me to fucking rot until it was too late I hate you
Wow calorie surplus! My favourite! Wow! So happy! So joyous! La la la happy happy so fun and fun and happy la la la I’m having a good time with this calorie surplus I’m not miserable I want to die la la la I’m eating with a big big frown it’s so awesome! Food! Food! Fuck my life!
I hate it when bad things happen to my loved ones instead of myself. They all have futures ahead of them, yet all the bad things dodge me and hit them instead. I have nothing ahead, so PLEASE curse me instead