Lexi

(She/Her), probably in my living room playing cyberpunk LD 01/16/23 born again Christian ✝️ baptized September 22nd 2024

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Life is fucking hard. Trying to establish an emotional bond with a parent when one has never really existed is a nightmare

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

At this point saying I’m happy makes me look like a pathological liar. After a day or week I’m no longer happy I’m probably worse off than before, then I’ll probably be happy again and then have everything crushed over and over like I have for the last 21 years of my life.

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Happy. That’s all 💖

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Never thought I would have to hide my slippers from my mom at 21 because apparently her blundstones make her feet stink and then she walked around in my damn slippers all evening 🤣😭

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Is it me or is the vacuum community sleeping on Bissell? Cause legit I think it’s my favourite vacuum and carpet cleaner brand

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Never did I think I’d see the day I was excited to have my mom come down but dude I’m so excited

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Reality today is realizing, life may not be perfect but I’ve gained more family this past year than I ever could have imagined. I’m getting my life together.. slowly but it’s happening it really is

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

The Christmas of 2024 is one I don’t think I can ever forget.
Not only did I confirm to myself that I do have so much new family that loves and cares about me but I also got my family back. No fights just happiness and being ourselves, support in my faith and happiness.

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

This is not the fucking argument happening. No fucking way

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

You can tell the slow fall especially when I look at my health app.. I went from averaging 10-15k steps to 6k for each week.. dude being at home doing nothing, only going out if I have enough meds I don’t like this.. disrespectfully fuck chronic illnesses

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Okay genuine question that I’ve had for years and after buying a different brand for the first time it’s now consistent.. why is cranberry sauce always in an upside down can? No matter the brand the rounded bottom is at the top and the easy to use a can opener side is the bottom

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

The only channel prime doesn’t have now is Netflix I just got the Apple TV notice like dude I have mixed feelings cause like overall I love it but I HATE THE ADS I just idk if I can convince myself to pay 3$ more lmfao

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Now that’s a scary thought… and i don’t know what to do

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Thinking about how you mix BPD with a girl where half her bodily functions feel like/they are stopping working and you get a person who’s basically a shell who will cry at anything who doesn’t know what to do because by 21 she has the health issues of a 60 year old man

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Here’s something. I’ve got BPD but I know the difference between a split and justified reasoning wanna know the biggest difference? Most people won’t support the mindset you have during a split not to mention I don’t feel like shit because this is justified not a overreaction

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Everyone told me to be wary of ending up doing all the chores for my boyfriend (never became an issue) no one told me to be wary of ending up being my roommates’ maid

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

You know what I remembered today? I’m an adult which means I can wear pajamas to my university classes and no one can tell me otherwise

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

This was originally a joke I don’t think it’s a joke anymore

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Ngl I don’t think even my antidepressants can fight this depression season

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

I don’t think I’ve ever understood people more than now cause I’m having to do what my friends did for me almost 2 years ago and holy shit it’s scary

[Lexi @Lexicles1]

Ngl I don’t think even my antidepressants can fight this depression season