Non-stop since last week. One problem after another, and I’ve been trying my best to fix everything. Physically and mentally drained. I just hope this is the last one. Please, I just want things to go smoothly. I’m too exhausted.
Funny how everyone finds me when they need help, but when I’m drowning, all I get is questions instead of a helping hand. I guess I’m only needed when I’m useful.
My circle is already small, but I’m slowly making it smaller. No hard feelings, no explanations. Just choosing my peace over unnecessary people and protecting whatever sanity I have left.
The funniest thing about helping people with their workload is when u end up getting blamed by the same person whose work u were trying to help settle. No wonder people stop helping.
It hurts a little more when you’re already hurting, but still have to figure everything out on your own. No one to lean on, no one to call, just me and the quiet realisation that i’ve always had to get through things alone.
One guy texted me on Tinder, “u dah go work?” and I immediately teringat that video “bekal Umar pergi skul, ptong teyuu,pastu cucun cucun” Fuck, you’re old man, I don’t know, I feel like matured guy shouldn’t be talking like that 😭