Dorian Gray

Existing on this Planet in a place called South Dakota

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

@Lxnnalive I may have always had a shred of it too

Just really notice it lately

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

The past few years have changed me

I notice that I no longer carry a smile on my face as my default personality

I rarely look at strangers with anything but a slight scowl and mistrust.

Melancholy to Anger is my base emotion.

This is the state of American Mental Health😓

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

@webber_jerry On a side note….My mental health has been much better the past month or so….after a terrible couple of months.

I have a great new therapist and have been focusing on family and fun….it all seems to help 👍

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

Almost every time I open up twitter it is not long that my vibe changes….

-Anxiety level goes up drastically
-It is an everyday…Doom Scroll
-People in the world really do Suck
-The Coup is still ongoing
-Traitors walk free..no arrests!

Tell me…Why even have Twitter?

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

@webber_jerry I go back and forth with my Twitter life. I have cut my Twitter time down to about 10-15 minutesday which is about just enough time to catch up with the news and interact with a few good people.

I just like to say the uncomfortable part of Twitter out loud every one in a while

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

I have not posted in a while….
I have cut my “Twitter in my face” time immensely. My mental health has benefited.

I have shifted my screen time focus to my Hobbies and Positive fun things….great advice from my Therapist 👍

Life is too short for Bad News all the time 😎

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

NO………Damn 😢

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

It maybe gloomy outside but the sun is shining bright in my mind ☀️

Spring Fever

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

@chandlersdownf1 Thank you

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

Update to the Twitter world on my state of mind after a couple weeks of Darkness within my Anxiety disorder.

I can report that the past week has been wonderful. The static has subsided for now. I can actually smile on a regular basis 😀

I feel better for sure….

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

@PrairyFyre Thank you so very much….
It always feels good to overcome a huge obstacle…especially with regards to one’s mental health

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

@bustedbonestees Thank You

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

@A_Peasant_King Truth…and Thank You

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

@MaureenO605 Thank You
I do feel way more Light than Darkness the past few days for sure

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

I do want to take a moment and Thank You all…So many folks had reached out with words of encouragement and solidarity!

We are all in this Together and need each other!

I really do appreciate ever comments and likes…..it shows me a lot about Humanity 😊

THANK YOU

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

I had never had such a complete breakdown in my mind and body on this level. It was traumatic and scary which compounds the minds ability to reason.

I can see the damage and have some understanding to fight to avoid this getting to such a dramatic level again…

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

@JohnThuneSucks You are right on the money with your assessment.

I fight so hard for them
I work to find calm for them
I do everything I do for them

Thank you for your words !!!

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

“Dad why do you always look so sad when you are alone…I mean….Sometimes when you do not notice me I see that you look Sad”

Last night my 9yr old daughter snuggled up next to me and spoke those words.

Understanding Tears rolled as I embraced her with a big Dad hug….

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

@chandlersdownf1 I will
Thank you for your words
I do appreciate it

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

Depression effects the entire family. If you think you are hiding the symptoms from them…..You are not! They see what you do not….

Depression and Anxiety are incredibly strong adversaries. They are sly, cunning and will win some battles.

I just have to win the overall War!

[Dorian Gray @LifeIsNotGray]

I will never hide things this important from my children. I may “age appropriate” some of the explanation but will always strive to inform them.

My girls are simply just Awesome
They always speak their mind and it makes me proud

They are my ultimate legacy