What doesn't kill you makes you
ghost all your friends,
lose your appetite, rot in bed all day, lose your academic potential, overthink everything at 3am, stop replying to people you actually love, lose interest in things you used to enjoy, feel tired even after doing nothing
I'm not anyone's first choice.
I'm not anyone's favorite person.
People might tell me that I mean a lot to them, but there's always somebody they'll choose over me.