Of course CPTSD survivors struggle w/ goal setting, affirmations, & "positive" visualization. That happens when every time you dared hope for something in your life, someone came alone to take it away &/or mock you for thinking things could be different or you deserved more.
one of my life goals that I don’t yet feel worthy of and may never, is to create a ptsd recovery center, the space I needed when I had nothing, the space that, in my fantasy world, would have saved me years and years of anguish