I think one of the saddest things about me is how long I can carry emotional pain without anybody noticing.I will still laugh. Still answer texts.Still show up.Still make people feel loved. All while quietly falling apart in ways nobody thinks to ask about.
“She survived.” No, she didn’t just survive, she flinches in her sleep, her heart races at loud voices, she shuts down when someone raises their tone, she scans every room before she feels safe, she has nightmares, she isolates to protect her peace, but yeah… “she survived.”
this girl on TikTok said, “if I tell you all the trauma I endured from my mom and you look me dead in my face and tell me ‘that’s still your mom’ I’m going to beat you how she beat me.” and she’s so real. stop undermining people’s trauma.
I think ppl truly underestimate how hard it is for two human beings, to do LIFE together. The amount of effort, compromise, understanding, trust, loyalty, honesty, resilience, love, care etc, etc, that it takes. You have to CHOOSE that person every single day.
I watched my friend cry in her car for 30 minutes, then walked in my house smiling and joking like nothing even happened. People really be fighting silent battles every day while still showing up and making others smile.
How fast I can detach. Anything i love extremely deeply I'm prepared to lose. It can break my heart but I have learned how to keep going. It can seem cold, but if it takes me off my pivot..l'll cut my finger off to save my hand. I cant lose myself again, for anything. I'Il heal.
Tryna pay rent while tryna pay bills while tryna knock down old debt while tryna fix your credit while tryna save a little while tryna heal from the stuff you don’t talk about while tryna stay positive when life keep throwing rocks while tryna live right and still forcing a smile through all the pressure… it gets overwhelming, it gets heavy, it’ll have you feeling like life got you in a chokehold, but stay focused, breathe, keep pushing, everything you’re fighting for is lining up even if you can’t see it yet. 😮💨❤️