My ex came over.. we had sex.. I wanted him to stay over but I’m also ok that he didn’t.. as much as I love and want him, I much rather we keep it simple then to add pressure that neither of us can handle right now..
I’m trying my best not to repeat cycles and in doing so I keep finding myself hurt and questioning everything about our relationship .. maybe it would be easier to find someone else to get under .. I don’t even want that. I just want to stop feeling like this.
I’m starting to feel so stupid.. he’s probably out doing him not thinking about me and here I am every night staring at my phone hoping he’ll call or text.. I have to figure out a way to move on..