Feeling so depressed at the moment , as I am missing Tyri ๐ญ, June , July , August are my shittest months for my depression.
My old horse passed in July , Tyri was put to sleep in August . June was when I started sharing her / looking after her .
It would have been 6 years .
My dog is slowly going downhill in his health walking wise . I donโt know what to do . He is nearly 14 in July i best prepare myself for the worse . Heโs come this far , Hope he can at least hold on until he is 15 .
Is getting on my wick .
At the same time, being on x or whatever platform can be so toxic.
So therefore I cannot always commit , getting my replies out quickly.
It takes time setting up a scene, on where I want a plot to go .
I need to be careful to not burn myself out , to make people happy cause I want people to enjoy writing with me .
So I need to remember, donโt write just for the sake of making someone happy .
Writing is my hobby not my job , I do rp on the side whenever I feel like real life+
So proud of myself, today Dodger and I had a lovely lesson with a new
Instructor itโs so important that the horse knows they can chill and learn to relax with you .
Heโs so voice responsive . I try so hard to get him be my partner instead of him , thinking oh great a bore .++
Heโs highly intelligent, you have to keep his brain engaged.
At the same time, taking it back to basics just case Iโve ridden horses over 20+ years doesnโt mean I have an ego .
Keeping our schooling to once a week is enough for him and myself.
The rest of the time ++