@gcldnbcy โi am,โ he states. he knows he is. not knowing why is part of whatโs killing him and he canโt even man up enough to figure out why. how is that not complicated.
@swdshdfnse jessie always liked listening to oliver talk, even when he could hardly understand him. โwow, that sounds so cool, makes me wish i still went to school.โ
@gcldnbcy he shrugs again, not really knowing if he wants to go through it or not. granted he would do anything for atlas so if he really wanted him to, he would.
@gcldnbcy he shrugs half heartedly. he really hasnโt. โi donโt know. part of me thinks if i do that then suddenly thereโs going to be some kind of excuse for it. like itโll be my fault iโm like this or something.โ
@gcldnbcy โyou know what i mean, atty.โ he said softly, shaking his head, โnothing has been easy for me. ever. i donโt want our kid to suffer like that. i donโt- i donโt know how to fix myself but i can make sure i donโt ruin someone elseโs life.โ
@gcldnbcy jessie softly scoffed, shaking his head, โbullshit.โ he practically laughs out. โi donโt know what it is. but thereโs something. normal people donโt act like i do. they donโt..โ he pauses, shaking his head. he canโt even say it. โthey just donโt.โ
@gcldnbcy โatlas.โ he shakes his head faintly, โwe both know that there is Something wrong with me. i donโt- i canโt pass that on.โ jessie glances up at him. โit wouldnโt be fair.โ
@gcldnbcy he purses his lips, shrugging, โi donโt know, maybe it would just be better to get a donor. they get tested for stuff. and it would make sure that theyโre healthy. and hey, it would still be you, which is good. the better half anyway-โ
@gcldnbcy jessie nods faintly, unable to hide the way his nose slightly scrunches even if he had tried to. โyeah, i mean, could..โ heโs so sure heโs being convincing too