mount ennui

side of beef possessed by demons

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thank you, friend

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YEAH. WE DID.

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we had a cool thing for a minute

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for those of you still here, know that I love you

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there are a lot of people who left years ago, people who I will never see this. know that I love you

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and maybe that's all I wanted

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and I know for a brief moment, I was a bright, weird little flash of light in some people's memories

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YEAH, I LOVE THEM TOO

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and I met a lot of people I really care for

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but I came here to be like Richard and Regis, and I think I did that.

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yeah, that's a factor too.

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AND YOU REALLY HAVEN'T BEEN THAT GREAT SINCE, LIKE, 2014? DEFINITELY NEVER AS GOOD AS 2012.

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but tbh, I think this is a logical place to end. my life is very different from when this began.

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I dip into the pain to see the people I love, but each time it's harder and harder

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there's little left here but pain. the few people I love who are still here are drowned out by the constant din of *gestures broadly* all this

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BUT WHY NOW?

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it's been almost 11 years. 11 of the most fucked up, mind bending years of my life. how am I supposed to stay the same through that?

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I have, but what's surprising about that? everyone changes.

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YOU'VE CHANGED

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that takes time. I never have time.