morgon

[morgon @MSilvis23]

Dear @redbull,
Please bring back the blueberry. I’m suffering over here.
Thanks 🫶🏼

[morgon @MSilvis23]

Every time I finally feel like I’m coming to peace with you being gone, you show up in my dreams and it feels like I lost you all over again. Grief is a bitch. I miss you so much, it hurts.

[morgon @MSilvis23]

I honestly don’t even care what happens anymore.

[morgon @MSilvis23]

Just came in for a 24 hour shift and halfway to the station I realized I forgot to bring my book and my switch. Rip to my sanity

[morgon @MSilvis23]

Having to accept that you’ll never have a good relationship with your partner’s family is so disheartening, especially knowing how your family accepts and loves them. The back and forth is so exhausting. All I want is for the support and to be happy 😭

[morgon @MSilvis23]

Having a male partner in EMS has really just solidified for me (even more) that I really could not handle spending every day of my life with anyone other than Maison

[morgon @MSilvis23]

My almost 13 year old niece just told me I’m old because I’m “like 24” and that means I’ve “reached unc status”… she then proceeded to try to explain to me all of their slang… I never felt like 24 was old until this conversation 🥴

[morgon @MSilvis23]

I feel like I don’t even know myself anymore

[morgon @MSilvis23]

We are going to see MGK next year and I am sooo excited!!!

[morgon @MSilvis23]

I think the worst part about my new schedule is that on my week days off, I can’t fall back asleep once Maison gets up for work. I’m already awake for two hours by that time when I have to go to work.

[morgon @MSilvis23]

I just got to respond to a call with my man also on scene. I’ve never been a girl who swoons over a uniform, but goddamn 🥵 Taking care of my patient in the truck and look out the window to him following behind in the squad car with his lights going. A power couple, for real🥵

[morgon @MSilvis23]

I fucking miss you so bad. Sometimes pretending to be okay physically hurts.

[morgon @MSilvis23]

I feel like it’s impossible to get out of your own head

[morgon @MSilvis23]

Update: When I went back he started following me around. The therapist kept looking at me like he was worried 😅

[morgon @MSilvis23]

You know you’re falling apart when the emotional support dog at the nursing home you’re picking someone up at comes out from behind the desk to find you 😅🥲

[morgon @MSilvis23]

I just want to know if it ever truly gets easier

[morgon @MSilvis23]

You don’t realize how grounded from anxiety your partner keeps you until you’re around a large group without them and you can’t even hold normal conversations with people you know. Here I was thinking I had my anxiety under control 🥴

[morgon @MSilvis23]

A bitch is really testing my patience.

[morgon @MSilvis23]

Imagine being a home-wrecking whore. AND being proud of yourself for it. You’re a dumb fucking bitch. Rot in hell.

[morgon @MSilvis23]

I’m still so angry that you’re gone. Everything feels so different. All while still not feeling real.
I’m ready to wake up now.