I don’t think men grasp how much of a violation rape it. Some women orgasm during rape, not because of pleasure but it’s their bodies natural reaction to penetration. These triggers last forever. Every time you get into a relationship you explain this. You carry a disclaimer…
I envy people who make decisions and stand on it especially when it comes to detachment.
I would detach and keep second guessing, I’ll be pondering on what ifs and maybes. I’ll sulk for days.
Some people will detach and act like you never existed. That’s a superpower.