Today someone asked me how I’m handing the loss of my dad, who was my best friend, my whole world, my heart and my reason for living. And it honestly made me realize how much I’m suppressing the thoughts and emotions of loosing him, my person. 💔😢
If y’all truly knew how much I have bottled up in order to protect the ones I love…..
& cause of it I’ve always been made out to be the problem…..
but they won’t ever know or understand, even if I tried.
I’m learning to take accountability for my actions, if you can’t do the same I do not see a reason in continuing any form of relationship…
Learning to heal and be happy within my self.
This is the darkest and lowest place I have ever been in.
If only y’all realized how mentally and emotionally destroyed I am, maybe you would leave me alone.