Jackeh

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

Another day, another year older...

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

@CarryGaryUK I know buddy. I said last time we spoke once things were in a better state (no money, no energy, illness) you should come swing by. I've not even had a break this year from work. So I've not really had time to to get on top of things to arrange some time.

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

Making new friends as an introverted adult is just pain. 🙃

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

@CarryGaryUK Indeed but it's nice to have a variety of friends to have different discussions and such with. Like me and you don't always play the same games to talk about together or necessarily have the same free time. 🤣

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

Agony 😮‍💨

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

Going well into the new year...brain feels like its gonna burst out of my skull. Yuck, yuck, yuck. 🫠

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

Body failing me again. Loads of pain, can't even move. Times like these I wish I had someone for support but instead I've gotta try and shift myself to get more pain relief. Feel like crying and it sucks. >_<

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

3am...dying... 🙃

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

Fuuuuuuuck

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

Just woke up, sinking feeling in my stomach and elevated heart rate. No idea why. Just something else going wrong I suppose.

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

I'll probably have to travel to the office until its fixed/addressed. I really don't have the energy for it at the moment and I'm just about to give up as I really can't take anymore.

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

I dunno how much more I have left in me. I wake up again to on and off Internet for it to completely shit itself and now I have none at all. Spent the last 2 hours trying to find a way to get ahold of my provider with no luck.

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

When it rains it fucking pours. I'm just so done.

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

Also tired of feeling like I am the bad guy, what am I supposed to do? I can't win. It's always never enough, too much or just feeling like people don't really give a shit.

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

I'm just done feeling like I'm constantly in pain.

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

I've had like 4 or 5 hours sleep in the last three days. But this feeling of not being able to change anything, it hurts.

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

Another night, no sleep and laying here now listening to birds chirping knowing my day is absolutely going to suck so bad. 😒 Can't just clear my mind and rest. I hate it.

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

@Poyser90 Thanks buddy. Appreciate that! My rambling and shouting is mostly just to get it out of my system and off into the void somewhere. Easier to do that than see a shrink! xD

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

Pick up my phone, feel overwhelmed and crushed, then put the phone down and feel empty and lonely. Vicious cycle of self destruction.

[Jackeh @MajorJackeh]

Not a wink of sleep yet again. Ah shit, here we go again.