@clematislyney The highest noted temperature in poland is 40,2°C, at sunday it's supposed to be 40 (earlier it said 41), so it's def not normal T-T (also summer just started, it's not even july yet)
@steinleyz Imo death by hypothermia sounds great, but it takes some time, so if anyone found you, you would probably survive (and it's cold af at first)
@steinleyz Jumping -> gotta find a high place to be sure you'll die
Hanging -> nahh, that just sounds terrible
Crashing -> too easy to fail and then would be painful
Stabbing -> you would need a really sharp object, lots of strength (both mental and physical) and you wouldn't die instantly
You cannot AC away climate change. That won't stop the polar ice caps melting, droughts, food and water security becoming worse, wildfires, rising sea levels, floods becoming more frequent, diseases, species dying and migrating, oceans becoming more acidic.
The future sucks.
Not sure if im healing (cause im not really trying to) but i recently started playing on my guitar again, im reading books again, i went to a con and met some new people, got an idea for drawings that i feel im actually gonna finish, that's crazy man
"You don't compare your chapter 3 to someones chapter 20" it's hard not to compare, when everyone else started writing their story with brand new set of pencils, while your pencils got crushed and destroyed, so you have to write yours on sand with a stick.
The pipeline of "oh i already know i want to be an artist of some sort when i grow up" ➡️ "oh god this field isn't sustainable i need a less creative job" ➡️ "oh my god im not passionate about literally anything how am i supposed to choose something fulfilling" is so real
My "high functioning autism" is basically everyone else seeing me as "completely normal but maybe just a bit picky/ particular"... while internally it's me in constant sensory overload, social overload, and fighting against my executive dysfunction to just do stuff