Nick Grant

I write daily about my life with #bipolar disorder, also known as manic depression. 1.3 million words published | #mentalhealth | #blog | #amwriting

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Got my gorgeous fur baby home. Beautiful bengal kitten. She's so brave and is really at home right away. So amazing. So happy.

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@sampsoncollins @HavilandDigital @markstewartprod @WesternEdgePics @grhmtylr @BlanckMass @mandnmanagement “Gazza” is a brilliant documentary. Loved it. Kudos to everyone involved in the production. Can I ask what music is playing in the background from 3:45 to 5:50 in the first episode, please? Music choices were awesome, as well as everything else about this fantastic 2-part film ❤️

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@MrsAmazinglyAce

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@MrsAmazinglyAce Yeah I have all of those in spades, plus the constant nagging doubt that all the suffering is for naught on this med free crusade. Keep reading blogs which say the intrusive thoughts will go away one day, but they never give a timescale

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@MrsAmazinglyAce Hats off to you for trying though. So tough trying to go med free, and it doesn’t work for most people; no prizes for suffering! Hope you’re finding whatever works best for you

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@MrsAmazinglyAce You’ve helped a LOT. Sorry to hear you’re going through the mill ((hugs))

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@MrsAmazinglyAce Yeah, significant day… thanks for saving my life. World Suicide Prevention Day too. Things are a lot better at the moment than they were back in 2017

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@MrsAmazinglyAce Thanks, Grace. I keep an eye on it from time to time, but plan on keeping a low profile until next year. Hope you’re well too? Thanks for thinking of me

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@Frankman1000 Ditto.

Even more weird was when asked to “briefly describe what you do in your main job”.

My answer was “I work in a small high-performing team of brilliant software engineers who designed and built the Census 2021 system from the ground up”

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I tried to write yesterday, but I was drunk and fell asleep with my blog post half-written. TL;DR? I managed to escape the UK and am now on holiday, enjoying hot & sunny weather. It's bliss.
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@rouquinne London is closed to people from the UK, ironically lol

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I'm trying to escape Plague Island before the EU bans everybody from leaving. It's kinda exciting, but not in the same league as "will grandma die this winter because our politicians are spineless sociopaths?" I guess.
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@rouquinne Contrary to popular belief, I do not seek out the rain. I think my perfect climate would either be 27 degrees C all year round, or hot summers and SERIOUSLY cold winters... nothing in-between

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@rouquinne I think about it regularly. Or, in Canadan vernacular phonetics “I think a boot it regularly”. I would probably love it in Canadia

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This might sound self-centred, but I've been asking myself one question a lot lately: how am I going to get through this Christmas without committing suicide? My plans are being thwarted, but somehow I'm coping; coming up with solutions. I still have hope.
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When I was a young man, I knew I had ENOUGH of everything I needed, and I was able to reconfigure my life around my priorities, which improved my happiness and contentment substantially. It all fell apart, and now I don't know what I want... maybe the end?
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I hate people who go on about 'spinning plates' or 'juggling' or 'multitasking'... like they want a medal. I'm BUSY and I LIKE IT that way. It's BORING not having much to do. The problem is, most stuff is so mundane, that it's also boring, and really awful
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Get whatever cat you want, but in hindsight, some hybrid cats are NOT domesticated enough to live in a domestic environment, even with a huge amount of adaptations; even with the right attitude. Washing bedding 3+ times a week is not sustainable.
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15 hour working day, today... not untypical. I do love being busy though. I would work 110 hours a week, every week, if I was paid enough and I was never bored. Definitely. I hate to even work 1 hour a week, if it's boring as hell.
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Today was a hard day at the office BUT I REALLY LIKE WORKING HARD SO IT WAS AWESOME. I mean, I was still a dick to people, I'm sure. I guess I just need to embrace it now, right? That I'm a complete asshole?
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Hell is a large organisation. Hell is working on a very large project, but being denied the opportunity to make it successful, because of bullshit politics. Hell is having experience, talent and high productivity, but being denied the opportunity to use it
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