Maria ✨

she/her 🏳️‍⚧️ Still mostly on Twitter, but Mastodon is @[email protected]

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

I'm sorry for being how I am 😔

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

I want a life worth living or alternatively death. And the former isn't realistic

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

I fucked it up and ultimately the only right thing to do is to eventually end it

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

My life isn't worth anything anyways. I don't provide anything meaningful. I waste a shit ton of resources and it's still not even worth living.

What's the point? Seriously, why do I need to be alive?

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

I just wish I mattered

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

I'm just sorry to everyone for being like this and hurting them and being annoying and just being me I guess I know I suck

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

My life isn't worth anything anyways. I don't provide anything meaningful. I waste a shit ton of resources and it's still not even worth living.

What's the point? Seriously, why do I need to be alive?

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

BZSt: "Die USt-ID kann aus Sicherheitsgründen nur per Post mitgeteilt werden"

Auch BZSt via ELSTER (Online): "Hier ist Ihre Wirtschafts-ID. Übrigens ist diese gleich Ihrer USt-ID"

Oh man Deutsche Bürokratie...

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

@weezerOSINT WHQL does not cost money.

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

Trying out @KagiHQ's @OrionBrowser right now, looking good so far.

Not surprised given I've been using Kagi for a while and it's always been great!

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

I've given up on myself. My mental health hasn't been good in years and it keeps getting worse. And my physical health is also quickly declining lately. I just hope I can die soon so this nightmare can finally be over.

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

I want to die. Preferably I'd like to bleed out in a snowy winter landscape away from everyone but unfortunately it's not winter anymore...

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

@just_some_dev @heyimdaf NTP can't provide zone information, it's probably GPS

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

@SapphoSys I can get you a code signing certificate much cheaper through Blahaj Cloud. Just message me if interested

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

I can't get help. I can't get better without help. Life isn't worth living unless it gets better. So what's the point of continuing at this point?

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

I don't think this is coincidence either. It's just easier to drive people to suicide than to real with more complex mental health cases. The same money can be made by treating simple cases anyways.

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

Still nothing from the detox people.

Help just isn't real in mental health. Hospitals, therapists and others keep promising help and then either ghost you or decline you months later for things they knew about from the start.

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

Still nothing from the detox people.

Help just isn't real in mental health. Hospitals, therapists and others keep promising help and then either ghost you or decline you months later for things they knew about from the start.

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

@stgtapothekerin @inumnea @DerFrankyman @ZauberBaerin Für DE wird die Gültigkeit stattdessen online beim Stecken der Karte geprüft basierend auf dem Versicherungsstatus

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

@stgtapothekerin @inumnea @DerFrankyman @ZauberBaerin Das Ablaufdatum gilt für die Europäische Gesundheitskarte auf der Rückseite, nicht die Gesundheitskarte selber

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

@blood_nixie @ibxtoycat So fun fact in the EU Paypal is actually a registered bank, and PayPal accounts can contain both e-money (like revolut used to be) and an actual bank balance depending on where the money is from

[Maria ✨ @MarMerkel]

When I first got admitted to the psych ward the doctor asked me if I talked to my plushies and when I said no she didn't believe me and asked a friend who had come to the hospital with me