Feelings don’t determine your destiny. Your life is in God’s hands. He sees what you’ve been through. He sees the hurt, the pain. He said He has beauty for those ashes. He said He’ll restore what was stolen.
You have not seen your best days. You have not accomplished your biggest dreams; you have not run your best race. God doesn’t take you to one level and say, “That’s good enough; just settle there.” He’s going to accelerate your life.
You can’t see it coming. No sign of it happening. That doesn’t mean God is not going to do it. He’s going to accelerate the process. What you were expecting, it’s going to be supernatural, something you can’t explain. A sudden breakthrough, a quick work.