I'm so tired of being alone. I'm tired of being lusted over. I'm tired of feeling like I'm too much. I'm tired of wanting to be a lover girl. I'm tired of wanting to make plans but no one cares if they cancel or forget about them. I'm tired of being isolated unless im at work.
I'm tired of being loved and lusted over in private. I'm tired of "No feelings attatched". I'm tired of having to keep shit a secret. I want to be loved loudly. I want someone to be proud that they're with me.
One thing I miss about L is that we watched movies all the time and even if I fell asleep, he'd still hold me in his arms or let me sleep with my head in his lap while he switched over to video games. Now I can't watch a movie without becoming anxious. I lost my safety.
I don't know about certain things. We were never together, like in a relationship. We were fuck buddies and best friends. So like.. Hopefully he's affectionate and shit
I can't wait to feel his cock inside me again, wow. I also can't wait to cuddle for the first time?? Hopefully he's actually a cuddled because I NEED that.
WAS AT A STOP LIGHT POORING MY HEART OUT TO THIS SONG AND I LOOK OVER TO MY RIGHT AND THERE IS THE HOTTEST GUY IVE EVER SEEN OUT HERE JUST SMILING AT ME AND WE MAKE EYE CONTACT FOR A COUPLE SECONDS AND HE JUST GIVES ME A BIG SMILE AND WINKS