I fully believe in 50 years autism will be split into multiple different diagnoses
As an autist/autistic person/person with autism, it seems to me that there are far too many things covered under the umbrella term of "autism". This is most obviously shown in the idea of the autism spectrum, where people may present with wildly different and even complete opposite symptoms. Add to that we don't know the causes of autism or how it works on a neurological level, and it feels like "autism" is an umbrella label for a variety of different, possibly even unrelated conditions.
That's not to say autism isn't real or will be refuted as the field of psychology advances, I just think it will eventually be split into several different diagnoses. Especially as we learn more about the underlying causes.
People with CPTSD often develop what's called a negative self-concept a deep, persistent belief that they're fundamentally broken, unworthy, or beyond repair. It's not the same as low self-esteem. Low self-esteem is something you think. A negative self-concept is something you feel in your bones. A body-level conviction that something is wrong with you. It isn't something you're born with. It's something prolonged trauma, especially in childhood, teaches you.
Studies have found that childhood emotional neglect, which involves the absence of emotional attunement rather than active abuse, can produce CPTSD symptoms just as severe as physical or sexual abuse. This surprises many people because neglect leaves no visible marks and involves nothing happening rather than something happening. But the developing brain requires consistent emotional responsiveness to build healthy regulatory systems.
Suicidal ideation, for many, isn’t about death.
It’s about relief.
From shame.
From feeling overwhelmed constantly. From feeling like a fucking burden.
The goal isn’t always “not wanting to be alive”
It’s just not wanting to live like this.
Autistic Me: says exactly what I mean.
Them: responds to the implication they invented.
Autistic Me: “I never said that.”
Them: “I know, but that’s what you meant.”
Autistic me: No. You just had a conversation with your own assumptions.
I often hear that autistic people can't lie, but I defitinely can. What I can't do is insincerity. I can't fake enthusiasm, I can't gush, and I can't pretend I'm best friends with someone I barely know. It feels to me like these traits are the currency of the neurotypical world.
Ex-wife of ICE officer who shot and killed Joan Sebastian Guerrera:
I was completely shocked by his job with ICE because I'm like, 'how do you keep getting into these jobs where you're around guns all the time?' He told me all I needed to know was that it was a justified shooting. He's like, 'I need you to lie about my character because this is what it comes down to. I don't want you talking about any of the abuse in our relationship.' I need to come out because a man lost his life. It was abuse to me and our daughter. I've dealt with harassing phone calls and threats of him wanting to kill me. I believe that this man was murdered.