First step in my journey: Botox in the hole. π³
Injections scheduled for end of January.
Not sure if anything externally visual will come from it, but I'm hoping it'll stretch open more easily.
Who wants to see before/after pics of the stretch? π
@Layli_Nullo I'm with you - labels can make us feel "seen," but they can also be constricting. Although I certainly have a masculine appearance, I changed my gender marking to nonbinary on my IDs as soon as I found out that it was an option. I've found it to be very freeing.
@Layli_Nullo Yes. I'm still often thinking about my appearance, wondering how much of it is a result of what I find attractive in others, and how much of it is truly an expression of who I am as an individual. At this point, it's still a combination of both. It's a work in progress.
@Layli_Nullo That is wonderful, and you're lucky to have come to terms with who you are and what you like at a young age.
As someone who identified as a gay male, I spent most of my life trying to look like the guys I was attracted to. It can be an exercise in frustration and futility.
It's been about 8 weeks since my cycling injury and shoulder dislocation. I think I may finally be seeing better times ahead.
I've been given the green light to resume cycling, and my visions of being a nullified massage therapist are beginning to flourish again. π
@Layli_Nullo I'm completely with you. Learning to let go of that tendency greatly enhanced the way I experience sex and my sexuality.
It's one of the reasons why I wonder if opting for a complete nullification (fullly removing any sensory tissues) is the better option.
@Layli_Nullo From the first moments I began having sex with men, I wanted my male genitalia to disappear. I began to see playing with myself during sex as an unpleasant habit, and I eventually stopped. Wearing a jockstrap was a socially acceptable way to help me achieve this.