SIhe has been seeming more shut to me lately and, she told me someone likes her and she likes him back. started liking her again and i told her pretty early and she said "i never know if i like anymore" which i took as her not liking me.
Anyone can go to the gym when motivation is high, or when they have a 30-day streak protecting their ego. But if you can't restart without beating yourself up, you aren't actually disciplined—you are just riding a wave of luck. Discipline isn't about being a relentless robot.