I realized I should say this is an ed and sh vent account. I'm pro-recovery but this account probably isn't the best to follow if you are in recovery. Also you don't have to worry about seeing sh pics, I don't post those.
Get back into my old habits get back into my old habits get back into my old habits get back into my old habits get back into my old habits get back into my old habits get back into my old habits
I had lost so much weight was down to healthy way and then I got stressed and I got a car so I could go get food from anywhere and now I'm overweight again so now I get to lose it all again after all the hard work I put in to lose it the first time now I got to lose it again
Well my license got suspended, My mother doesn't go grocery shopping so all the weight gain I've gained from stress and eating out will probably disappear because I have no food a win is a win I guess. And if anybody sees this and it's like oh no you're perfect no I'm overweight
Anyways I quit that job that made me gain all this weight from stress but at the end of the day it's still on me for not being able to put the fucking food down
I hate myself so much, I feel even pound I gained, it's not like I'm just overreacting about 5 10 lb I've gained like 40 lb now. I was 126 for the longest and now I'm back to 165. Which is overweight for my height. I originally lost 70.
Screaming crying throwing up why why why all I have to do is stop stuffing my face, I don't need to eat everything on my plate if I'm full, I don't need to eat everything. Nothing I eat satisfies me, so I eat more. And now I'm back to where I was 4 years ago.