We're ldr, only 3 hours but see each other for about a week every month it pains me that we're not closer. We don't even know when we'll see each other again RN his life's getting serious and I'm only gonna be in the way
I'm too clingy I'm annoying him i spam too much I'm too needy I feel like I'm just some needy bitch needing his attention 24/7 he has a life it's not his job to deal with me I'm too emotional I'll end up pushing him away
I'm too emotionally dependent on him atp I end up crying when I find out we can't call (tho I'd never tell him that obv) it's so childish but I get so disappointed when we aren't able to spend that time together it was the only thing getting me through the day
The relationships so peak that when I finished eating his ass literally 12 secs later a demon fart was released from the chamber and we just laughed about it for 3 mins straight
The reason I get on sh twt a lot when I'm currently relapsing is because I actually hate seeing ppl do it so it kinda just makes me disgusted enough to stop at the time
Y'know I thought the whole "you can tell by someone's eyes" was Bs but my eyes genuinely don't have their usual look to them since I started falling back into my depressive episode. They are so dull looking now