I've realised that I kinda just have the destiny of being alone. Being a monogamous strictly lesbian trans women is a fucking curse, add to that the fact that I'm just kinda a pathetic bottom and can't dom/top right anymore, when all the tops are already happily taken just makes-
I really don’t think I’m gonna make it into my thirties. I’m a fucking tough person who has been through some shit but I value true love way too much for this to be something that’s possible to get over. I feel so, so utterly drained of any will i once had.