Stop rewarding yourself for boredom. Produce before you play. Most people wanna pay for vacations, celebrations, and parties to make themselves feel good for the pan that they feel. Playing before producing is poverties playground.
What d’u do when you’re overwhelmed and you have no one to talk to because you’re used dealing with sh**t alone and not talking to anyone, when the people closest to you are all part of the problem you’re dealing with and they don’t even realize it?
Let them cheat in peace. Don’t chase, don’t investigate, don’t loose yourself trying to keep someone who’ve already made their choice. Sometimes the greatest form of self respect is letting people expose themselves.
Your mind is not a suggestion box for the world. If you don’t generate your own signal internally, your self knowledge, your clarity, your conviction, the loudest voice around will take over your programming.
There must be a name for the kinda pain that cuts so deep you can not express to any one or by any means. You just hold it in for as long as it takes and let it burn out. The result of which may be a hardening of your heart progressively. There must be a name.